,Hi Sara ,I am sorry you got the news you got today. I just got back from John Hopkins an hour ago from having a turb done and decided to check the site. I know that there are many on this site and off that have lived long happy lives while dealing with b.c. You will make it, take a deep breath ,Maybe go for a nice walk and think this through like you said. There are wonderful people in this group that will help you to walk this trail and you won't be alone. I guess I tend to think of the millions of people that have beat cancer or their living productive lives with it, I think it was Winston Chruchill that said "The only thing we have to fear, is fear itsself" I will praying for the Lord to give you the peace of mind and strength you will need for this time in your life. Remember it is all right to cry and be in shock and to share any other feelings you have ! love from Rocky