I completely agree! I used to feel the same way. Now I really watch what I write, wondering who is going to say what. Instead of having the freedom to write whatever I wanted. I as a caregiver I hoped to also share the frustration of this event in our families life. The up days and down days. Easy for others to judge when the scariest event in their life has past, whether it is for the time being or forever. Try walking a day in my shoes before you judge me. I have a total of 8 kids, one granddaugter, in-laws from hell, 8 brothers and sisters, a cat, a wonderful mother, and stepfather, my house in FL hasn't sold yet, I am liquidating all of our assets and I am only 39 that means I am starting over financially after years of saving, and MOST IMPORTANTLY HERE:
"The Love of my Life is Dying of Cancer!!!
Try to remember what it was like on those "Dark Days" ........everyone has had them.......if you act like you have the perfect anything here, then that my friends is DENIAL... NO ONE should be telling me what, how, or when to feel anything. I should be able to vent, ask a few questions, and not be judged. I am a fantastic caregiver, that forgets nothing, has a gentle hand & loving heart...That is as a mother, and a wife...I go about my daily route and methodically get everything done for everyone. I am not venting to my Wonderful Husband, I am not venting to my children who are mostly busy at school, and with their own lives, I don't take out my frustration on my two little ones...I go to church, I am a good Christian...So if I want to sit at my computer and rant, rave, scream, laugh, cry, ask a question, give some advise, whatever...isn't that what
this is about? I thought so, maybe I should just get a journal...
Someone asked on another blog about a bumper sticker or a T-Shirt for this, here's one I think that we can all agree on:
"BLADDER CANCER JUST PISSES ME OFF"!!
Good thoughts for Michael's surgery!!!
Karen