Holly,
You "self absorbed" ???...that's a good one....you must be kidding...you are always reaching out to help someone else, whether it is on this forum or elsewhere. Sorry you had to get such uncomfortable news this close to the holidays but I sense you won't let that stop you from enjoying Christmas with family & friends. As always, you are in my daily prayers and I will be thinking often of you during the next few weeks as we wait to see what happens next. Yes, some of it is luck, and yet I do believe strongly in the power of prayer as Iam sure many others do...please know that there will be lots of prayers offered up in hope that tihings will turn around for you in the coming year. You have such a gift to offer others, just being the wonderful person you are. You give and give and I just don't know how you do...you are an awesome person and I so appreciate your strength of character. I feel so blessed and inspired to know you as I am sure any others do. Wishing you rest, happiness and peace of mind this Christmas season. Sending you lots of hugs....God bless you!....love, Melodie