Lorrie -- You are so articulate! Thank you very much. I'm Susan, stage
4 but blessed (for now) with feeling well. Many mets in liver and lungs
though. I worry that evey little twinge (a cough, bowel changes) signals
the beginning of the end.
How am I handling the situation? Because of so many people's inability to ask
about and invest in caring about people with cancer and their families
(presumably because it would hurt too much)-- as you so clearly articulate,
bless you -- I spend most of my time "Passing for Well." I take extra case
with attire and grooming, plan in advance to walk with an energetic gait,
and certainly not let on that I wear diapers when I'm be away from home
any more than an hour.
When people ask how I am doing I say one of two things: (1)"I feel well today,
how are you today" OR (2) If I feel sick "I feel pretty low energy today, how
are you today?"
I surely worry about the days to come when I won't be able to fake it and the
acting and its pressure may be passed along to my family caregivers. May they
find the strength to be direct!
I do have a very few friends/relatives off and many fellow sufferers on the forum
who do care and express it -- even risking me "getting mad." Bless them all!
You vent very well, I wish I could "let go" like that better --
Appreciatively -- Susan