Yes Karen, We are forgotten sometimes. When I am asked how I am doing I think to myself "you really don't want to know.".I find a drive to the store, some private time to cry or whatever helps to clear your mind. The fact that you are thrown together 24/7 is alot to get use too. The focus is always on the patient, of course.A piling on in your head goes on, when the pile gets too deep you need to ventilate somehow. Therefore the forum , and maybe that ride to the store. I am finding bits and pieces of my personality again, the one I remember. I look at my face and think, wow, I have aged thru this process as well, no wonder. Gene has but weight back on , I think he is almost normal looking, unless his pouch fills up and his shirt gets a little puffy, no problem, a run to the john and he is back to normal again. He still has some issues, healing in the groin area, but we were assured its still early for healing to be complete. Next visit in March, cat scan and chest exray, pre-cautionary. What a whirl wind you have been thru, I'll not ever forget your first post. And one never forgets the words spoke to you on day of diagnosis, and here we are!!! 6 MONTHS LATER, so Karen if the pile gets to deep go for that ride, take some grapes..merry christmas.. Ginger