Worried about possible bladder cancer

Hey I know there is a saying don’t borrow trouble but sometimes I just can’t help myself.

I’m a 31 year old female and I know I’m young but I’m already a cancer survivor from Actue Lymphoma Cancer at age 6 years old. I also lost my father to colon cancer when he was 35 years old so I’ve learned cancer doesn’t discriminate and to expect anything at any point in time.

I’ve noticed at some point after having my daughter in October 2017 changes to how I would urinate. I would always go to the bathroom several times in the night. I would also often have to go suddenly and out of no where and many times I would accidentally urinate some in my pants before I would get to the restroom. I chalked it all up to two babies haven’t done my bladder any favors. I also found myself randomly sick to my tummy on many occasions couldn’t really figure out why but felt like maybe hormones working themselves out since I was breastfeeding my daughter.

As time passed and I weened my daughter things did not get better..

...I have found since then I can hardly eat without getting sick. I found it super painful to have intercourse with my husband. Not to mention the abdominal pain I was having. My blabber always seem to feel full and hurt when it was full but also felt painful when it would empty like something was stabbing it. I also noticed an intense burning in my genitalia mostly around where I would urniate from.

I made an appointment for my obgyn and asked his to look and test for anything. I even had him test me for all STDs I couldn’t imagine my husband ever cheating on me but at this point I’ve been in pain and I need to know what’s wrong. Everything came back negative except for blood in my urine. He talked to me briefly about possible kidney stones and told me he would bring me back in two weeks to test my urine again.

About a week and a half later I’m burning so bad and I can’t manage to urinate. It’s hurts so bad and feels so uncomfortable I decided to go to the urgent care. At this point they test my urine and tell me that there is blood in my urine and bacteria but no white blood cells. They tell me it’s not UTI because if it were white blood cells would be present as well. They say I need to see a urologist and give me some antibiotics to treat the bacteria. They also sent my urine off to culture the bacteria which came back negative. They even did a CT to check for kidney stones and told me there were none.

I took the antibiotics in hopes it would help some but still have abdominal pain, constant burning, and urination issues. I never feel like I’ve emptied my bladder and I have to go to the bathroom almost every 20 minutes.

I’m currently waiting for my referral to urologist but my mind keeps tracing back to bladder cancer. All the what if’s have stacked up against me. Not to mention in June of last year I have an adnormal Pap smear that found pre cancerous cells but a negitive HPV test. So of course my brain is racking the thought that maybe I’ve had bladder cancer this whole time and it was starting to spread.

All of this is some what irrational I know but since I’ve already had cancer it doesn’t seem to be that crazy of a thought to me. I was hoping to find some women to share their experience with me in how they came to find they had bladder cancer? I was hoping to see if any of this was similar or different to other women. I know no 2 people are alike and everyone is different but my mind just needs to know so I can compare. Maybe in this I can find a little peace before I get to the doctors.