Gina, my heart goes out to you and I wish I could tell you something magical to make your pain and frustration and anger go away. I cannot but I agree with what Herb and George have said. Make the remaining time with you much loved father matter and become among your most happy memories. I watched both my parents at a much later age than your father die slowly and it is among some of the most painful times in my memory bank. But, I also have some wonderful memories of sharing with both of them as their lives slowly closed. I focus on those memories over the sad ones. I recently came across a photo of my late father at the last birthday we celebrated with him and saw that he was so much thinner, had a confused look on his face as if what is this card about, and he looked soooo old. But, honestly that is NOT how I remembered him at all from that time. As others have said, make this time matter more than any other time with your father as those memories are what will carry you through the rest of your life. Meanwhile, know that my love and prayers are with you and your family and especially your father for peace, to not have pain and to know your love.