Maria,
I sure wish I could make the lymph node involvement go away just by wishing. The shock of such news makes it real tough to find steady ground - like massive aftershocks from the "getting diagnosed" earthquake. How many nodes were out and how many positive? What are they proposing for treatment? When I got my path report after RC and they told me it was a T3 - thru the bladder wall - I was devastated as well.
Adjusting to our reality is not a simple thing - I have days where I feel defeated, other days I certain I can win this war. By far the hardest part of facing it all is when we think of our loved ones. You are not alone, Maria.
I will keep watching for your posts - wherever you may post them. Personally I agonized over where to post when my status changed. I felt like a fraud posting in the invasive section all because I was afraid of seeing my own post in the metastatic section. And I am only an email away should I be able to help.
((((Maria))))) my thoughts and prayers are with you, God Bless, Holly