I wish we had met outside of this as well. This is rough to go through alone not know what each day holds. Trust me every day is different. Try just getting some soup broth, pudding or applesauce down her, even if it's just a couple bites at a time. Jeff really like crushed ice so I spoon fed that to him. Try and keep as much stimulation going as possible, just sitting on side of bed for a little bit here and there if she is able. Jeff wanted close to a window so he could see the birds outside so that's what we did. Her vitals will be all over the place, just part of it. If you feel she is becoming dehydrated just let hospice know. Our hospice came and hooked up an IV of fluids and ran it in slowly. Just part of keeping them comfortable. You are not being ridiculous either in wishing for more time. With God anything is possible. But he also will not let her suffer more than He wants. It's comforting to know she is looking forward to going to heaven. Some do not have that privilege. She sounds like a wonderful, strong woman which I am sure has been passed to you. Just don't try to be so strong that you ignore YOU. It's okay for your kids to see you cry and it's okay for your mother to see you cry. It's relief for all of you. Thinking of you. Tammy