Hi When you say youll never be the same and it makes you unhappy to think that, sounds like the blues to me those kind of thoughts are defeating, Ive been through this like all of us and positive energy will help and these death thoughts and never be the same thoughts are not helping ,bad thoughts. youl be fine try to exercise walking easy for starters, and dont think those neg. thoughts get out of yourself and enjoy what you do have , finding this site is a good start for feeling better about your situation, it is very helpful,good luck and its not that bad,trying not to think about something is impossible, easier to think of something :)good to fill the space.do you have a supportive family, that helps I hope you do, if not the people at this site are very kind, again best of luck,just part of our journey.right
Another thing seems that from what the doctor says it takes a few weeks to get over the operation. He said if i am tired a lot that is regular thing and I should just rest.
i feel like I could sleep and sleep after being awake for just a few hours. Don't have a bit of energy like i use to have.
i'll never be the same i guess, kind of makes me unhappy to think that.
I also had 6 weeks of BCG for a 4 cm low grade tumor. I had very little side effects and was able to tolerate it very well. I will be having 3 more next month. I did have an increase in frequency with minor burning.