emotional side of cancer ?

Hi

UA is urinalisis - pee test. I've had employers who randomly test a certain percentage of employees weekly for drug use...and that is what they called it. Guess it stuck lol Unfortunately they haven't given me anything for pain yet.

As odd as it sounds, I kind of feel less anxious at the moment...With all they have done they have to have a pretty good idea of how it all stands and what should be done specifically. I'm just in the blind a tad longer. To keep from thinking it like crazy I have made some plans Getting a "new doo" today - I let someone else cut my hair a few weeks back and she hacked it. So today my regular cutter is going to fix it up. And I called up my best girlfriend.....she is coming out to help me with some cleaning and decorating. Maybe the dining room doesn't have to be "the room of boxes I haven't unpacked yet".We were married Dec 16.....I didn't move in till New Years weekend. I worked 11 nights in a row much of the time so I only had 2-4 days off in a month.Made it hard to get much else done. And with 2 tur things and "plumbing" issues - I still haven't finished unpacking even.

Take care all - will keep ya posted..Holly

Forgive my ignorance but what is a UA?.......i hope something for the pain you shouldn't be in? Ok the Great Lakes.....thats a big territory..Michigan? I'm sorry for all you're having to go thru Holly and sorry that you have to wait for an appointment next week. They never want to give you news over the phone. I don't know about the bone scan..maybe they saw something from your previous surgery with the breast cancer. I know every time i have a CT scan i tell the technician she's going to see a suspicious marking on my lung but its been there forever..its an old scar from an allergy that i had to pesticides a long time ago. I had built up a lot of scar tissue but somehow my body managed to get rid of the majority of it after i got out of the environment i was in. My pulmonologist said he had never seen a remission like that before. And i always make sure the same radiologist reads the scan otherwise alarms go off....they've told me cancer, pneumonia...etc.....and its nothing. So don't let the cart get before the horse. You're young...you'll fight this......and by all means eat chocolate........Pat

PS I am in the Great Lakes area US of A ...lol not the UK Not sure they would claim me either!

What a day...First- Dr finally called back and ordered up a UA. I call it a start lol All my Xrays are done and so is the bone scan. They had me wait after it, then had me come back in to take 5 xrays of my left shoulder...that is not uncommon to need xrays after they review a bone scan? Then I went to Dairy Queen for a reward. Tomarrow they will have films and reports for me to pick up for Thursdays surgeon appointment.

That basket case thing is happening again darn it. They have scooped, photo'd, poked and tested everything now....and I fear the Thursday appt. Atleast all will be in the open, and the scrimmage line will be declared.

I asked about it( micropapillary carcinoma) because the surgeon said it was one of the reasons he did many more biopsies, also that he had to biopsy the bladder neck for diversion. After I posted I saw the search on top of page here and ran it. I certainly hope the path is not correct or something. Not ready to deal with all this. Maybe what all they are planning on takes care of that too.

With the breast cancer I didn't do any chemo or radiation. They took very wide margins and a node...and said it should work...I was lucky? When I am asked my bra size...I ask on which side : How the cervical cancer was dealt with - omg - I had to go back every 3 monthes for a few years for them to fix it...only question I asked is if I was done yet. That was 20 years ago when I still felt bulletproof.

God Bless all you dear friends - thanks for the thoughts today helping me get thru these things.
Holly

I think the emotional side of cancer is easier to deal with as the time goes on. Initial disgnosis is the worst and I was an absolute basket case. I had never been sick in my life....3 babies...that was it...how could this be happening to me. I had things to do, grandchildren to take care of and although I was 72, didn't feel like it. Then I sat at my computer and googled bladder cancer message boards and up came The Bladder Cancer Web Cafe and that literlly changed everything. What I found here could not be found anywhere else. I have an extremely supportive and caring family. Two wonderful best friends, one for 4o years and the other for 60 years. They are the best and were there every step of the way but no one could "feel" what I was going through like all of you and I will be thankful for that forever. I have the most caring local uro and an amazing surgeon. The nurses at my hospital have a phones on their belt. You are given a number every day that corresponds with that particular nurse. If you need your nurse you dial her number and she is there. I could not have asked for better care but only one nurse, who had just had a hysterectomy 2 months prior knew what I was going through although all of them were very kind and compssionate.
The emotional side for me is every new pain I get "must be cancer" and finally I find out it just a boil, or a bad cough or something very common. I guess we will always worry that way but we will always have each other to bounce things off of and there will always be someone who posts and makes you feel better.
Thank you and blessings to all....Jean

Holly....micropapillary archetecture is kind of rare and pretty aggressive. I'm glad you're going for the bone scan and CT. But then all bladder cancers decide to get aggressive at some point. What the protocal is i don't know....whether chemo first and then cystectomy? I don't know how they work over there in the UK?
When you had your breast cancer did you have chemo or radiation?
Don't worry too much over the path report.....every time i have a CT scan the pathologist mentions something he never mentioned before and i frantically ask my internist what it means and he ususally tells me it means absolutely nothing...that it was there before only not written down!!.....last time he noted fatty cells around the liver and that my bladder was extended..which translated to my bladder was full and everyone my age has fat around the liver!! Pat