Hi Elaine,
life don't sound a barrel of laughs just at the moment
but your description reminded me of something! :
I am not Jewish - in fact I don't do this god thing in any form (the more you believe in him the more danger of being a martyre
to judge by the books :
) however I have read the major religious texts of our planet and many of the other equally valid (invalid) superstitions. :-?
Somewhere in The Kaballa I seem to recal the admonisment that goes somewhere along the lines of 'if you should develope a tumour or serious malaise, it is best to move to another town'. :o
OK if you take this too literally maybe it is too literal to make sense but how about its actual meaning being 'If you are ill radically change your life'.
I have no idea, nor is it any of my business :-[, but consider that the challenge you face may currently overwhellm you :'( - how about adding a completely different challenge - see if you can move to somewhere like Florida, Georgia, Louisianna or some other State radically different to Indiana, for a period, and see if such a massive change of life style helps, making sure to change from plains to the seaside, temperate to warm climate, and a diet of fish and fruit. :-/
I am NOT medically trained and this is NOT advice merely a suggestion based on the simple logic that what doesn't seem to be working too well is your life and style at present.
OK so we can all call to mind instances where this has not been a success as with Ratzo/Dustin Hoffmann in Midnight Cowboy but he had left it far too late :-[.
Consider the success of many who make the radical change and go to Lourdes - maybe the cures are due more to the radical change than any concept of god bothering! 8-)
So what is to lose that doesn't feature on the menu to date :-/? The upside is even if it doesn't work you get a darned good holiday! 8-) ;D
Just a thought. :
Good Luck &
Best regards,
Greg L-W.