Whit,
I remember my feeling frozen in time during the period between my diagnosis and my eventual RC, which seemed like a much longer time but was actually about six weeks. I did spend a great deal of that time researching my disease/situation so as to make an informed decision as to what course of treatment was right for me.
However, within about two or three weeks I had come to the realization that no matter what happened with me regarding this cancer I knew I would handle it and I also knew I would survive it (positive thinking is very strong medicine). Something that helped to put me in that frame of mind was a particular song I had heard a month or two previous to my diagnosis, and that song was YOU RAISE ME UP by Josh Groban. I bought the CD after hearing it and I listened to it over and over again, although I didn't know why I kept listening to it, it was something I knew I had to do (listen to that song). Soon after being told I had bladder cancer I realized that song was what was helping me feel strong, and I continued listening to it at an obsessive rate for quite some time after that. I still listen to it, but not so much as back then, and it does still have the same power over me as it did previously. They are very simple yet powerful words that I believe could be appreciated by many for the same reason I came to appreciate them (the words and the song).
By the way, Whit, where is Cedarburg? I was born and raised in Beloit Wisconsin, and although I haven't lived there for many years I still have family in that area.
Just keep on hanging in there and it will become easier, it's just a matter of time and each persons journey will be a little different, so be patient with yourself and maybe delegate some of that work of yours to others until you get back on your feet (emotionally).
God Bless,
Lou