Caligula was the scourge of the earth sick sex nut I don't see how that relates to Vin's question of anxiety as I doubt the blc has gone to his brain. Anyway, tonight, I was watching TV and saw an Outback Steakhouse commercial. The background song, which I tried to find on Internet, brought me back to the best calming. It has to do with just enjoying today. Nothing, nothing is of more hurt and fear to us than our own thoughts of 'what if." Projecting to the possible dire future with our blc and the guess work of what could happen next of dire consequences. It was good I heard that song tonight as it once again brought me back to a calm center even with the latest positive urine cytology report I just received. Too many of us spend our time worrying about negative happenings. It makes us anxious, fearful, fretting and may also cut into enjoying the moments. The moments are all we have and our only life is in our mind. Thoughts are things, so I choose my thoughts to be uplifting and positive. No, it's not the Ativan talking. LOL What is threatening you at this moment other than your thoughts?