Vin,
It's the old lady of the group. I have grandchildren your age. So, listen to the voice of experience.
When I was first diagnosed I was a wreck. I remember going to a gathering with all of my family and I felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at this sad, quiet lady I didn't even know and I had no control over it. It was even hard to smile and my children are used to seeing this little old Italian lady full of life and always happy.
I finally asked the Dr. for something because as my son puts it I was "tweaked" to the max. I took Xanax and a holistic remedy called "Rescue Remedy". If you have any trouble with addiction to alcohol you cannot take resuce remedy but otherwise it's fine and in any health food store. Maybe neither one of them are for you but there is something out there for you. Your little one is only 8 months old and you wouldn't want these precious days with your baby to go by and not remember every minute. So....get something and be happy and I don't know what your beliefs are but at the end of the day I leave everything up to God now and let him worry about it so I can get a good night's sleep and be ready to "fight the battle" the next day. There is a country song that says "You don't have to move the mountain Lord, just show me the way around it".
When I say my prayer to St. Peregrine today for all of us, as I do every day, I will ask him for you.
All of my prayers and thoughts are with you........Jean