I had surgery two weeks ago and they removed a tumor and a stone From reading the results in my chart I found out it was HIGH GRADE PAPILLARY UROTHELIAL CARCINOMA and INVASION of the LAMINA PROPIA. Yesterday at the post op follow up I was told that I would need chemo and maybe radiation. My mom went with me and she did most of the asking. I basically sat there and listened. As a nurse, I should have been asking questions and been more involved with the visit, but today I was the patient and just listened.
Why am I not feeling concerned about this? I haven`t paniced, I havent cried and I haven`t had it invade my brain. When I told my family, it was like discussing the weather for me. Is this a normal reaction to this type of news? I was not surprised by the findings or the news of treatment. It`s almost as if this is no big deal to me. Am I in denial? In shock? Shouldn`t I be feeling something? Fear, concern, worry? Is this normal to simply not have any reaction?
