Just diagnosed

That was exactly my DX 8 years ago. It is normal to worry. Everyone deals with this differently as I'll never forget the URO called my wife as a professional courtesy to see if she wanted to give me the not so good news (she works at the medium sized town hospital so she would see the guy on rare occasions as she worked in the labor and delivery area). She said nope, he is a big boy tell him direct and I appreciated the act. Hit me for a ton of bricks for about an hour. After I churned through it, two things hit me. We all will leave this earth sometime and if my time was to be sooner or later, so be it and move along-I don't mean to be morbid it is just a fact. So, I changed mentally to more of one day at a time and that is where I am at 8 years later. We always know many people with far worse situations: a good friend with a brain tumor with 2-3 months left. Another that broke his back two years ago and can hardly walk.

You are one of the fortunate people that should beat this and gone to a stronger, richer and more effective life because of what you have faced. BCG while not fun it is FAR better than the rigors of chemo.

It is also OK to feel mad or bad about this, it is also OK to vent. Post anytime, we will listen. And, you will be typing to someone else in several months helping them along!

Unless it is red blood (fresh) versus darker (usually meaning older) it is somewhat normal. I was warned by my URO on my second TURB that I would probably pass clots 10-14 days post. And, while it may look like a lot it usually isn't. If he hadn't warned me I would have freaked out. As always, you/we are paying for their expertise. For peace of mind you may still want to call the doctor or nurse especially if it si still fresh blood.