Very sorry to hear about your condition, but you are in the right place, the key now is to get the transurethral resection (TURBT) done as soon as possible so that the tumor is removed and can be evaluated (low or high grade), and the staging of the tumor can be evaluated (superficial or invasive and if so, to what degree). I am a veteran too so I know the VA can be difficult to deal with at times; honestly, the sooner the better to get that surgery (the TURBT) done. You will be anesthesized so will be fully "out." I have gone through two of these in the past two months so (sadly!) am a "veteran" of this too, just like almost everyone else on this forum. Take a look at my posts on this subject (I started a thread under "newly diagnosed"), it recounts my experience in some detail, hopefully that will be useful to you. And as always, ask questions, we are here for you.