Thanks all for all your help
went to NYU dr and am completely confident and honestly, it may not be the best decision, but best for me. I totally conncted with this Doctor. Path report showed it invaded detrusor muscle--plus I had two tumors not one.
I am getting scans done saturday at NYU (MRI--YUK and scan of chest as I had lung cancer years ago) --if a go, I will get surgery on the 15th of this month (Merry Christmas)--if no go, chemo till February then surgery. If it expanded, then a differet regimen.
He did an internal on me and when he pressed on my bladder when doing so, I wanted to cry the pain was so bad. He said bladder is expanded--could be from TURBT or tumor is still there.
Got path report--there were two tumors, one slide showing muscularis propria invasion. My doc is getting slides
thanks for all your help everyone!!!!! I feel so much more connected when I can touch base with others that have gone through this.