I know it doesn't seem like it right now but you will feel normal again.
I have no idea if he was kidding, but this is not something to kid about so I hope he wasn't kidding. If that's his kind of joke, then maybe next time you are at his office just say something like, "Oh my God, your wife was just shot to death in the parking lot! Oh, just kidding! Ha ha!". That's about as funny as a joke about the size of the tumor.
Here is something you should read. I posted it before but it applies to all newly diagnosed folks.
Bladder Cancer Center is NOT optional
When reading that page, you will find a link labelled "Bladder Cancer Treatment Guide for Patients". Follow that link and look at the flow chart.
Once you learn more, you will feel like you have some control. I know it's hard, but you can do it!!!
If your doctor pays you to visit him, then he is in charge. If you are paying him, then you are in charge. You are entitled to honest answers and full disclosure and every record he has in your file. You paid for them all and should get them.
You go to him for his expertise. I really suggest you not wait until next Friday. Have him call you to tell you the stage and grade and if the pathology report indicates that there were good margins.
You will also need a follow up TURBT. This is usually done about six weeks or so after the first and is to be sure that they got it all. Bladder cancer is very often understaged from the first TURBT. The second TURBT should be done at a major bladder cancer hospital though. (ARE YOU STARTING TO NOTICE A THEME HERE?)
Trust me, if this advice was not very, very important, I wouldn't keep harping on it! Read the threads that I pointed you to in this message.
Move fast, get to the right place, and take charge of your case. First, you have to know exactly what you have.
It sure sounds like bladder cancer and I'm sure the doctor would have called you to say it wasn't by now because I'm sure he got the pathology report back weeks ago.
You still need to know stage and grade though because that is what determines the proper treatment path.
Mike