Hi Elaine,
so it is kind of a standoff - >
When you aren't trying to make yourself ill your Doctor joins in :o
AM I RIGHT in saying your life is pretty cr** at the moment? Weight loss, indignity, embarrassment and near agraphopia in avoidance of people. Too weak to argue etc. :'(
How long at your present rate of deterioration before you OR your Doctor kills you? :o
Whatever you ARE doing isn't working so you have NOTHING to lose and everything to gain.
STOP EATING GLUTTEN - there is plenty more you can pig out on! ;D
Get a grip - it is your life seize it with both hands and shake some sense back into it - you WON'T beat cancer if you can not raise your basic health and you won't do that without CHANGE. :-/
It is clear you care and you care about others - you have no right to deny others your help by failing on your own case.
It is obvious you have a hunger for life or you wouldn't rush out and buy a book on the say so of some nut in Britain! 8-)
OK - tell your Doctor to take a hike - he has been treating you and look what a f***ing mess he seems to have made of it!
Take the risk - get a life and get better - take control - YOU are the boss.
At the end of the day BECAUSE you are the boss and it is YOUR life and you have no right to merely exist when you have so much to give. :-/
YOU and YOU alone must choose :-/ - whether to bump along existing and letting your Doctor dictate or seize the initiative - yeah so one or other of the decisions is right and the wrong decision may kill you. :
Life is all trade offs - exist and slowly slide towards denoument OR force a change and grasp life with both hands and determine to regain health with a glutten free long term pig out - NO lapses - Lapses are choosing self destruction, a pure cop out. >
Your Rubicon has come! :-[
Stay in the comfort zone and steadily deteriorate without making waves or plunge into the Rubicon determined to come out into the sunshine on the other side but YOU must decide because it is one or the other and it could kill you. :-/
I am sure I'm not the only one who believes you can swim! You have 'enjoyed' ill health too long, so long it has become a deteriorating norm you feel comfortable with. :-/
The only difference between a rut and a grave is a grave is deeper and a decision has been made to fill the ends in! :o You have a rut at the moment but as you get more institutionalised and underconfident, weaker and less determined will you let someone else fill the ends in? :-/
I think not. ;D
Come on - I want the details of what new glutten free food you have found that you like each time you find one that likes you
- or else it sounds like mealie meal porridge and boiled water for ever!
Good luck with your decision.
We are all going to watch your progress back to health on this list - a posting a day listing the improvements - tell us your achievements there just isn't an option for failure.
Regards,
Greg L-W.
PS failing all else contact Bubbles and ask for one of her bongs - she seems a lot more relaxed now that she has discovered they aren't for blowing bubbles! ;D