Don't have to reply , just need to talk ......Even if just to myself.

Doing real good today. It really is a rollercoaster. I have xanax if I need it julieann. I took one yesterday before bed so I'd get a good sleep.
No pains today so I'm fine.

Tomorrow , who knows. But I keep reminding myself this is NOT a death sentence anymore than my stroke, heart attack, diabetes is/was. I still hate going through this. But what can ya do? If you got it, you got it , and have to get rid of it

I think having a bbq and lemon merigue pie helped :DD I highly reccomend it .

Thanks for replying :-*

I'm in a very different boat than you because I am only a caregiver, but I can say that even in that situation the emotions can go crazy. One day fine....next day basket case. So, if I were the patient, I can't imagine. Just know that you are not alone here and try and hang in there. Also, talk to your doc. He/she may be able to give you something to help with the anxiety......and don't be afraid or ashamed to ask.....we are only human.

I know you said we didn't need to reply but thought I would. My journey with cancer started back in July of '07.I am 42 so surprised it happened so young. It started with Kidney cancer and I too was scared to death. Then at my next checkup I was dealing with bladder cancer. I know how you feel because I feel it to. For me it is the constant fear for the next appt. I try to put it out of my mind but it is usually there.
I can tell you that you really have to live for each day and not let it consume you because it can and will. Focus right now on changing your diet, if you haven't already. See the positive side of it, you found it early and it can be treated. I know I whine about mine sometimes but mine can be treated. It is just annoying to know that this can go on for years. I am always hear to talk to my email is bjbog82@yahoo if you ever want to chat.
It is hard to live with this and even harder when the people around you don't understand you emotions. This is a great place for support. You will get through this you just need to be positive. Hang in there!! Barb

Been having gas pains , just regular old gas pains , but for some reason I felt overwhelmed. Haven't felt that way for quite a few days. I guess the reality or unreality of the situation comes and goes , doesn't it.

I just feel angry mostly, but scared too. I'll be ok, but I really hate this diagnosis and wish I had almost anything else at the moment. Sigh.


Thanks for listening